Lost & Found?

My trip to KL was meant to be a quick get away from my bad week from work. And probably, the real drive was to meet my pal from Mumbai who was there on business.

We were uni friends and haven't met since year 2000. Along the way to KL, there wasn't any excitement especially when it was gonna be a 5 hours drive. I'm not a bus traveller sort of person. That means I'll have to be prepared for car sick and sour plum. Even when I had the agenda to meet my pal, it wasn't so hopeful since I didn't hear from him after my mail to him.

Surprisingly, he called me the 1st day I was there. Still after the call, I didn't have much hopes of our meeting. Say that I'm skeptical or a pessimist but I couldn't bring myself to any excitment. Only when I finally saw him, I stood up and brought myself to give him a hug. I realised how happy I was to be able to see him again. We had a good and long heart to heart talk - about the past, the present and the future, about what's happening around us and about relationships. In fact, he was talking most of the time and I didn't say much. I liked that.

We met again the same night at a really nice jazz bar. He brought me back to the good old days, reminded me of what I was, who I was and how I was. There was a few instances I feel lost by his questions. And even when I felt like I've got a lot more to say on some comments and views he had made, I kept quiet only to disagree with some in my mind. That made me realised how much I've changed and how I've began to look at things. I know I wasn't like this when I met him the last time.

Maybe it is about learning..about experiences..about the stage in life. In the past, alot of times when I make my stand, make my views and do certain things, it seems useless ... unappreciated ...ignored or worse being misunderstood. My effort probably surpassed my enthusiasm now. So over time..I guess my enthusiasm depleted...and now to most people around me, I would just let them be what they think they are..what they want to be. After all, it is not any business of mine to interfere in their views or thoughts.

Having said this, in fulfilling my friend's hope to meet up, maybe my enthusiasm is still there after all this while...?? Just lost maybe...?